roller coaster ride of emotion

it's interesting how many emotions we experience in the course of one day, or even in the course of just one activity. here's some from my day today.

i woke up confused this morning. was that ding ding sound part of my dream or was it my mother waking me up? then irritation. it's only 7.30. what for wake me up so early? i'm tired. later on irritated cos parents nag me about 6 years of choir with jennifer tham and nelson kwei and still singing like that, must sing properly etc etc.

at church, shyness with having to practice with the mic. panic attack. talk about leaving my comfort zone. embarrassment that i had to walk over to the organ side during the reading. pressure cos what if i screw up? need to set example for my other lectors. at the lector stand, extreme nervousness. what if something goes wrong?! immediately after the psalm, exhileration and relief. it's over and i did ok. very happy with my altos today. altos rock!

at mph, anticipation cos hoping there's clay aiken's 'learning to sing' book. jubilation! they have it!! bit dampened. it cost $41.48, sigh. hopefulness that maybe can borrow $20 from parents to make up the difference since i already have the rest with me. annoyance that parents think the book's a guide to singing despite my telling them it's an autobiography. disappointment that i don't have enough money to buy it yet. amused thought that if clay teaches me to sing, i surely would lose my voice. already losing it. ;D

in the bus, wonder at how someone put a white rose in the box where the bus guides are kept. romantic scenerios flashing across my mind. curious at how some woman i saw could keep waist length, really thick, untied hair and wear long sleeves with out melting. amazement that some other woman was so skinny that she could wrap an anklet around twice to make it a bracelet.

back home, listening about alexander graham bell on 'your story hour'. bit bored at first. tedious. later, interested when they mentioned something about a dead man's ear. disappointed that it was a 'to be continued...' thing. "aha!" moment when i wondered that why famous people like to mess around with dead bodies. really angry when parents nag me about andrew's work. pissed. really. he's sec 4. why can't he handle his own damn work?! blog reading. happy that verena & dawn's grandpa is better. sad to think about uncle ted in the same situation last last year. confused by that game thing on clifford's blog. is that about how far a drunk can run?? impressed with jess's new skin. way cool gal. excited that i discovered adrian's blog. interesting fella. really amused with jac's entries. especially...well everything. :D

amazing how it's a roller coaster ride of emotions. all these feelings in just one day. woah.